why oh why oh why!?

So my life is getting more and more depressing. eck. My phone is due to be turned off... I couldn't pay the bill... and Jeremy said he would and guess who doesn't have the money. Oh well. And I am due to give up my new laptop this week. The manager was able to squeeze me in another week.

And now, I am up sooo late and I can't sleep. ugh. I miss the times when I went out alot. Now I never leave. my life is getting pretty boring, and it makes me sooo mad. and sad. and ugh. And it pisses me off that my sister can do whatever she wants. whenever and don't have to worry about anything. but yet I have to give up my things, my phone, my computer... And what makes me even more pissed, is that my mother pays for my sisters comp... but my sister has her own money... but i, who can pay mine, has to give mine up to help pay bills?? wtf...

ugh im in a shitty mood tonight.

La La La... Lolly's!

Today my Mookie head was over! Well, lets back track, as I said earlier, I went with Jeremy to town. While in town I got a call from Cheryl, saying Mookie was screaming my name and she missed me!! Aww! Well, she gave Mook the phone and I talked to her, well sorta. She just kept saying "Me me, Me me... Where you? Me me, Me me. I love you. Me me, home now." It was cute.

But when she came over, she was COVERED in cheese doodle dust, and no pants! Just the way she likes it :) Silly goose. She was as rambunctious as ever. We had a ball! She was so sweet and funny! I will miss these days when she gets to be a teenager. *gasp* I can't think of that now :O

Overall, today has been a great day! Now, if only one of the many jobs I have applied for will give me a call back... :)

CORRECTIONS TO MY "Rawr Blah Blah..."

I talked to Myleah today. I now know what i said and to whom. I didn't realize what I did until today, but things are fixed now. Myleah had to wait for her que before she could say anything. I still can't believe I said anything... gosh. I feel sheepish!!

Happy Birthday Daddy in Law

Happy Birthday to Kent, my future daddy in law :)

On another note: Today was a better day. NO DRAMA!! :):)

Went with Jerm to get Kent some birthday presents! Jerm got him a "dad" book. And we both got him a gift card to Beef O Brady's for Kent and Robin to have a nice dinner and a drink together :)

But I really love my friends! The ones that are there! Thanks to everyone's response for yesterdays blog. I really meant it.

LASTLY FOR NOW: Thanks to everyone for a Drama-Free day!! :):)

Rawr. Blah Blah Blah Blah Blah!!

The last couple of months have been crazy, what with me getting fired, and then my time in NC and the times after. And even before that. Crazy times like these make a person think.

Like the summer of 08 when I found out Robin, Myleah, and Byron where moving down, I thought things would be different, for the worst. But instead, things got good for a long time. Myleah and I got really close. Now, I am not sure. We got close and we talked about a lot of things that I never thought I would talk about with someone other than Jeremy. (yes, he was present for *those* conversations, too. it's the topics that kind of embarrass you in public forms) We talked about everything at one point. I loved her like a sister. Then things went bad between her and Jeremy. Then her and myself.

After a few months, I contacted her again. I missed her. Then we talked again, and I loved it. And apparently I said something to someone about what we (Myleah and I) talked about. Thing is, I don't know what it was. I am confused. I know I didn't tell Jeremy, he got mad because I wouldn't tell him. Then she went a few days without talking to me, and when I was editing my friends list, I thought I would save her the trouble and deleted her. That just pissed her off more. I am sorry that I did it, but since she won't talk to me... I guess all I can be is over it.

The past few months also made me realize who my real friends are. Who I need in my life. The ones who will always be there for me. I've made some new friends along the way, and I hope to keep them forever, if possible.

I have learned what lengths a person will go through to hurt someone, to pain someone, to break someones heart. Someone who will tear a family apart. Well, a few someones. I know the pains of losing people you love, whether by death or one's own decision. The terrible things life has to offer.

But I also know the great things life has to offer. the little moments that make life wonderful. The family moments everyone should experience, and the love that goes with it. The days that seem so perfect, that are perfect, that nothing, anything, anywhere could mess them up.

The things that make us human. The emotions, the anger, the love, the hatred, the depressions, the happiness.... These things all combined into one that make everyone the same. Some have higher or lower levels of each emotion, but all the emotions are there. ALL of them; not one person is exempt.

My family consists of great people, who love me through EVERYTHING. not who get pissed and say I am nothing on a regular basis. Not people who stab me in the back. They are the people I can not LIVE without. Whether by blood or adoption, my FAMILY loves me, and I love them. Each differently, individually, sometimes very emotionally.

Recent events have made me question who is really there for me. Who reciprocates my actions, and thoughts. Who has been there for me, always. I know who they are. They know.

Jeremy Kent Billings

Tabitha Maria Collins

Rebecca Marie Bruno Zurcher

Jalyn Nicole Drinkwine "Mookie"

Donald Travis Mercer

Ham. (sometimes :) lol)

These are those who have been there. Through EVERYTHING.

These are who have helped out alot. Whether it was to comfort me, talk to me, someone who understands me. Thank you!! all of you!!!

Estefania Guajardo

Cheryl Drinkwine

Sabrina Angelene Billings Delaney (BMW sessions :) lol)

Allen Best

Christina "Pansy" Blevins

Matthew Belcher

I love all of you!!! you all are the best!

Lalala Spring time

So it's getting warmer and prettier! I am so happy! Times like these, they are perfect. I love sitting around with family, laughing and talking. :)

New Laptops.

So, Yesterday ham and I went and got new laptops. yay! they are wonderful, and will be ours in 2 years or less! lol

Been crazy around here lately! So excited once again that Myleah and I are friends again!! yay! I am planning on going to see her in TX sometime in the near future. :):) Jeremy wasn't happy at first but I hope he won't stay mad. I really want to go. I miss her.

Mom got her job!! Don't know exactly when she's starts but hope its soon. I am to hear this Monday about my prospective. Hope I get it. *fingers crossed*

So ready for the summer and PARTY SEASON!! My first year of legal drinking age, and I am ready to party like its 2010... Wait, it is 2010 :):) Hoping to have that St. Patty's Day party the weekend after so all working people can come. Ready for some Flogging Molly and Dropkick Murphy's!!! Well, I am going to peace out for now, but don't worry, I'll be back.

IS LIKE OOOOOOOOOHHHHHHHHHH EEEEEEEEMMMMMM GGGGGEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE

I AM SO HAPPY!! i am finally able to be friends with MYLEAH AGAIN!!! oh i missed her. I didn't inform ya'll but we had a very rough patch but I am glad we can overcome it and still be friends!! OMG I AM SO HAPPY!!

and I might have a job!! even more exciting!! and Mom got one!! Things are looking up! More to come!!

Esqua!

Today was BLECK!! I woke up and went to old-fart sit aunt janie. When I got there, Cheryl said Mookie had been sick all night. Well, I was like "leave her here. dont take her if shes been sick" well what she didnt tell me was that mookie was also sick this morning... A few hours later I got a call from her saying the daycare needed someone to get the baby. OMG, i was mad but I went. poor baby. Can't blame her. Well, she was fine when I got her, but i brought her to mom just incase it was a virus so janie or brandi and bunky dont get it. Mom said she ate a little potato salad and she was fine.

Well ham was sick at school, so we had to go get her. we were almost to the school, and Mookie got sick all over the car. but she felt better after. lol she was like "all better" and ugh, i couldnt do anything for her, curse my weak stomach. but we got her all better and she was fine the rest of the afternoon.

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for the love of god....

so today i went with gma to take aunt janie to therapy. i am so tired of this... i need rest. but all i have been doing is working for gma pretty much to help janie... and my ankle and knees can't take it... grrr... more later... too tired

HOLY CROW!!

Has is been that long?? So, Since my firing and trip to NC, my mom and dad have split, and my dad's girlfriend is a COMPLETE bitch. I hate her. She has tried to RUIN us but the 3 siblings stood strong. Now we think that WHORE is completly poisoning him. let me find out. Since it has been a while, I will start back slowly. Please forgive me faithful reader. :):) Well, back to my boring, still jobless life where I baby my 65 year old aunt who can't hardly walk and is overwieght. ugh. But, I still have my mookie pie Jay Bird. But, more later. I am back, for good :)

OMG. Been sooo Long.

Sorry, my faithful reader. lol

Alot has happened since father's day. I was still living at the beach, with Trish and Emily. Now I am back home, and Jobless. Let me explain.

I knew at the end of the summer, I would have to move back home. Well, Jeremy and I talked about it, and since a friend of his was in a bind, we [his friend and i] would get an apartment to share with each til jeremy came back, then all 3 of us would share. well, we couldn't find one so i moved back home. By this time, CFA has a new owner, Adam. Everyone thought he was sooo nice, til he fired my mom on bogus charges. Then a few weeks later, I am home. I was home one week... That thursday, my day off, i drove the 33.7 miles from here to cfa to work 1 hour for this man, and then come home. That saturday, I am fired for bogus charges. Then he hired this man from VA who moved down here mainly for this job, and the was fired. Then the jerk fired jason.

Oh and the day he fired me, the next day I was leaving to go see jeremy for 2 weeks for his surgery. So yea, ended up staying 2 months. But i am home and glad. will write with more details from the trip. I am sooo tired right now. Good night.

happy frickin fathers day...

So, lets start off with the holiday. father's day. my family started with my dad yesterday trying to blame him for stuff missing from my granddaddys shed. not his fault. cheryl and sperm both have access to the shed...

then today, started off good. Dad loved his beowulf book and his dragonfly buttons. Then we go to grandmas and during dinner, brandi is talking about barfing and stuff (yes, during dinner) so my dad chases her. Yes, my cripple up daddy... since his acupuncture appointments, hes been feeling better. Then when he comes back... they start on him again about that shit...

ugh. well my aunt somehow got access to alot of books and gave them grandma. found a book ive been looking for: The lovely bones by alive seabold.

Well, tried to read it on the porch, mom comes out then grandma and dad. they leave, try to read again, brandi and ham come out but LOUD so i go hide in granddaddys room since almost everyone there is afraid of it. i read, then my asshole of an aunt busts up with "where is aimee, she needs to get off her lazy ass and pick up those books." (edited some of the language)

well, needless to say, aimee didnt do shit. the 2 babies did. not that i mind, but they acuse me with out ACTUAL PROOF!! they only come up with the fact that i was looking at the books, but so was everyone else. so i refused to do shit. then grandma yells at me, then said if she falls on her face, its my fault. hell no! she wont fall from picking up a paper back book. ugh!!

Oh, and i stabbed the sperm with a pitchfork. that was fun. and i got the sims on my comp again. yay!

going to bed. tired and pissed. night yall!!

Alrighty then!!

So, gosh, Im getting bad at this. Well, I moved, as I have already said. Met some cool people...

Well, those cool people are apart of this group called Campus Outreach, Beach Project. They have invited me to go Decade Bowling, they broke the 150+ into different groups and they had to dress as a different decade. Whit's group was 70's, and emily and I went, so we dressed in 70's attire:

Then another night was Hick's and Southern Prep night. now that was funny =D!! We have so much fun together.

Jeremy moved away for the summer for his eye surgery. I hope he hurries up, gets it done, and then comes home nice and safe, and I can keep him forever =D I misses him!!

Then, in the next few weeks, Chick Fil A of MoosRule Inlet will be changing hands. Laura, Debbie, Mr Marcus and his family will be leaving us and we will be getting a new Family, along with a new owner. Adam Brantley. Very nice man. I know he is married, went to college for engineering, and has a 14 month old son. He said CFA must have been where he was meant to be. Very cool. I think he will be a great boss.

Aloha.

Wow. Sorry to worry yall. Been moving. Now I have 2 wonderful roomies, Emily and Trish!! and then we have loads of new cool people at CFA!!

Amanda- kinda quiet, havent really talked to her
Kyle- is nice, kinda quiet but works kitchen. Is really down to earth.
Susie-totally awesome!! into team work. super sweet!!! from minnetonka!! sweet!! Has a cartilidge piercing like me!!
Lucas- really cool, but kinda nervous. think he'll be even better than he is if he will relax a bit! really quiet.
Nina- is awesome and loudish, like me! we can talk talk talk!! really cool!!
Whitney- will be with me in the window area this summer, super friendly and amazingly a great person.

They all are amazing and I am glad I am getting to know them all!! I think this summer will be awesome!!

Dad's Doc Appointment

Dad has some really messes up doc's/

at the pain mgt center, he took yet another drug test today and the doc told him within 1 hour (the other tests were 2 days a piece for results) that he passed, meaning no more meds for him. He went to the family doc and he pulled up the results and said they werent even posted yet, meaning the PMgt doc lied...


So messed up... well, going to read sommore new moon. Night ya'll!!

2 a.m. visit to Wally World!!

So my honey came over yesterday, well last night. He came over about 12ish and we made our way to wally world. OMG what a mess!! they are reconstructioning it again. It's aweful. *sigh*

Well, we couldnt find anything and made our way to the electronics. yay! he bought me bridewars and they got him so new headphones. yay!!

Then we went to BK and came home. yum.

I also hung out with tracey for a little bit yesterday. yay!!


And i talked to Kyle today. and it pissed me off. he's back to the way he was in middle school... and asshole. He's pulling a jackson and i dont like it...

I LOVE JEREMY!!! now everyone stop trying to tell me how to fucking do things!!!

MY....STUPID....DOG...

THAT STUPID F*(#^$# ATE MY DAMN TWILIGHT BOOK!!!!!!!!!!!

Blessing of the Inlet

Almost forgot. I worked the blessing this year. Mom at first was kinda grouchy, because we were locked up in a trailer (our CFA trailer) but it looked like it was gonna rain and stuff so i told her if it does, we'll stay dry. and if it got really hot (which it did) we had air conditioner.

Well, we took turns walking around the festival. Jeff and I saw these turtle bowl things but they were GORGEOUS!!! they were pottery but amazing. she told me she would take 8 bux off of one and when we went back, she told jeff only 4. So neither of us got one, but i was looking through the book sale, awesome deals.
Softbacks, 2 for $1
Hardbacks $2
then they had VHS and books on tapes but i didnt look at the prices. I found twilight and new moon softbacks... $1. then later on I was giving out chicken sandwhiches to the workers, and one was like they book nook was giving out all the books. I got 5 boxes. One of books that I wanted for me then a bunch of random ones. I think I may have georgette heyer's collected works. lol and i gotta few by emilie loring. and then a bunch of other ones.

So, Ok. THink Im done now

Sorry. Been busy.!!

Went and saw the hannah montana movie. too cute!!

Well, ham is here now to hang out, but will type details later =D