why oh why oh why!?

So my life is getting more and more depressing. eck. My phone is due to be turned off... I couldn't pay the bill... and Jeremy said he would and guess who doesn't have the money. Oh well. And I am due to give up my new laptop this week. The manager was able to squeeze me in another week.

And now, I am up sooo late and I can't sleep. ugh. I miss the times when I went out alot. Now I never leave. my life is getting pretty boring, and it makes me sooo mad. and sad. and ugh. And it pisses me off that my sister can do whatever she wants. whenever and don't have to worry about anything. but yet I have to give up my things, my phone, my computer... And what makes me even more pissed, is that my mother pays for my sisters comp... but my sister has her own money... but i, who can pay mine, has to give mine up to help pay bills?? wtf...

ugh im in a shitty mood tonight.