Tuesday, November 3, 2009

OMG. Been sooo Long.

Sorry, my faithful reader. lol

Alot has happened since father's day. I was still living at the beach, with Trish and Emily. Now I am back home, and Jobless. Let me explain.

I knew at the end of the summer, I would have to move back home. Well, Jeremy and I talked about it, and since a friend of his was in a bind, we [his friend and i] would get an apartment to share with each til jeremy came back, then all 3 of us would share. well, we couldn't find one so i moved back home. By this time, CFA has a new owner, Adam. Everyone thought he was sooo nice, til he fired my mom on bogus charges. Then a few weeks later, I am home. I was home one week... That thursday, my day off, i drove the 33.7 miles from here to cfa to work 1 hour for this man, and then come home. That saturday, I am fired for bogus charges. Then he hired this man from VA who moved down here mainly for this job, and the was fired. Then the jerk fired jason.

Oh and the day he fired me, the next day I was leaving to go see jeremy for 2 weeks for his surgery. So yea, ended up staying 2 months. But i am home and glad. will write with more details from the trip. I am sooo tired right now. Good night.

Sunday, June 21, 2009

happy frickin fathers day...

So, lets start off with the holiday. father's day. my family started with my dad yesterday trying to blame him for stuff missing from my granddaddys shed. not his fault. cheryl and sperm both have access to the shed...

then today, started off good. Dad loved his beowulf book and his dragonfly buttons. Then we go to grandmas and during dinner, brandi is talking about barfing and stuff (yes, during dinner) so my dad chases her. Yes, my cripple up daddy... since his acupuncture appointments, hes been feeling better. Then when he comes back... they start on him again about that shit...

ugh. well my aunt somehow got access to alot of books and gave them grandma. found a book ive been looking for: The lovely bones by alive seabold.

Well, tried to read it on the porch, mom comes out then grandma and dad. they leave, try to read again, brandi and ham come out but LOUD so i go hide in granddaddys room since almost everyone there is afraid of it. i read, then my asshole of an aunt busts up with "where is aimee, she needs to get off her lazy ass and pick up those books." (edited some of the language)

well, needless to say, aimee didnt do shit. the 2 babies did. not that i mind, but they acuse me with out ACTUAL PROOF!! they only come up with the fact that i was looking at the books, but so was everyone else. so i refused to do shit. then grandma yells at me, then said if she falls on her face, its my fault. hell no! she wont fall from picking up a paper back book. ugh!!

Oh, and i stabbed the sperm with a pitchfork. that was fun. and i got the sims on my comp again. yay!

going to bed. tired and pissed. night yall!!

Saturday, June 20, 2009

Alrighty then!!


So, gosh, Im getting bad at this. Well, I moved, as I have already said. Met some cool people...

Well, those cool people are apart of this group called Campus Outreach, Beach Project. They have invited me to go Decade Bowling, they broke the 150+ into different groups and they had to dress as a different decade. Whit's group was 70's, and emily and I went, so we dressed in 70's attire:

Then another night was Hick's and Southern Prep night. now that was funny =D!! We have so much fun together.

Jeremy moved away for the summer for his eye surgery. I hope he hurries up, gets it done, and then comes home nice and safe, and I can keep him forever =D I misses him!!

Then, in the next few weeks, Chick Fil A of MoosRule Inlet will be changing hands. Laura, Debbie, Mr Marcus and his family will be leaving us and we will be getting a new Family, along with a new owner. Adam Brantley. Very nice man. I know he is married, went to college for engineering, and has a 14 month old son. He said CFA must have been where he was meant to be. Very cool. I think he will be a great boss.

Saturday, June 6, 2009

Aloha.

Wow. Sorry to worry yall. Been moving. Now I have 2 wonderful roomies, Emily and Trish!! and then we have loads of new cool people at CFA!!

Amanda- kinda quiet, havent really talked to her
Kyle- is nice, kinda quiet but works kitchen. Is really down to earth.
Susie-totally awesome!! into team work. super sweet!!! from minnetonka!! sweet!! Has a cartilidge piercing like me!!
Lucas- really cool, but kinda nervous. think he'll be even better than he is if he will relax a bit! really quiet.
Nina- is awesome and loudish, like me! we can talk talk talk!! really cool!!
Whitney- will be with me in the window area this summer, super friendly and amazingly a great person.

They all are amazing and I am glad I am getting to know them all!! I think this summer will be awesome!!

Thursday, May 7, 2009

Dad's Doc Appointment

Dad has some really messes up doc's/

at the pain mgt center, he took yet another drug test today and the doc told him within 1 hour (the other tests were 2 days a piece for results) that he passed, meaning no more meds for him. He went to the family doc and he pulled up the results and said they werent even posted yet, meaning the PMgt doc lied...


So messed up... well, going to read sommore new moon. Night ya'll!!

2 a.m. visit to Wally World!!

So my honey came over yesterday, well last night. He came over about 12ish and we made our way to wally world. OMG what a mess!! they are reconstructioning it again. It's aweful. *sigh*

Well, we couldnt find anything and made our way to the electronics. yay! he bought me bridewars and they got him so new headphones. yay!!

Then we went to BK and came home. yum.

I also hung out with tracey for a little bit yesterday. yay!!


And i talked to Kyle today. and it pissed me off. he's back to the way he was in middle school... and asshole. He's pulling a jackson and i dont like it...

I LOVE JEREMY!!! now everyone stop trying to tell me how to fucking do things!!!

Wednesday, May 6, 2009

MY....STUPID....DOG...

THAT STUPID F*(#^$# ATE MY DAMN TWILIGHT BOOK!!!!!!!!!!!

Blessing of the Inlet

Almost forgot. I worked the blessing this year. Mom at first was kinda grouchy, because we were locked up in a trailer (our CFA trailer) but it looked like it was gonna rain and stuff so i told her if it does, we'll stay dry. and if it got really hot (which it did) we had air conditioner.

Well, we took turns walking around the festival. Jeff and I saw these turtle bowl things but they were GORGEOUS!!! they were pottery but amazing. she told me she would take 8 bux off of one and when we went back, she told jeff only 4. So neither of us got one, but i was looking through the book sale, awesome deals.
Softbacks, 2 for $1
Hardbacks $2
then they had VHS and books on tapes but i didnt look at the prices. I found twilight and new moon softbacks... $1. then later on I was giving out chicken sandwhiches to the workers, and one was like they book nook was giving out all the books. I got 5 boxes. One of books that I wanted for me then a bunch of random ones. I think I may have georgette heyer's collected works. lol and i gotta few by emilie loring. and then a bunch of other ones.

So, Ok. THink Im done now

Tuesday, April 21, 2009

Sorry. Been busy.!!

Went and saw the hannah montana movie. too cute!!

Well, ham is here now to hang out, but will type details later =D

Saturday, April 11, 2009

Happy Easter

Ha ha. I almost put happy eater... lol

fun times. Today the babies got a turtle sandbox/swimming pool from walmart... too cute...

and aunt cheryl, the dingy woman, went and bought the babies one of the same things i got them... grrr... super busy day at work... so tiring...

will write more about it after a nap.

Thursday, April 9, 2009

Laaddy daaah!!

so i was rudely awoken several times today from my dad being really sick and loud. so finally mom starts freaking out and takes him to the ER. Well, he was back and forth from the ER and the Pain Mgt Center he goes to... The Doc at PMgt all but called mom and dad liars cuz he passed his drug test.

*For those who dont know, my dad takes 2 narc's and 1 muscle relaxer and he is supposed to fail. No way he passed...*

Well, he eventually made his way from both the ER and PMgt... he made his way to the family doc... Vandergriff... and non of the doctors really wanted to right the scripts for him cuz one doc thought he was selling it... which is BS...

well we got everything worked out and got him home and then i went to granny's... yay!!

While there, i played with jay and ky... and we watched twilight and OH! OH! OH!! aunt cheryl my have sold my car... but she didnt tell the people about the thing with the heat... so im scared they are gonna not want it... she kept saying they have 72 hours til im scott free, but dad told me thats only off a car lot. So HA!!! but i would feel kinda bad but whatever...

So then Imma go to a car lot... YAY!!

But back to granny's... after cheryl and jay left, brandi me and ky broke out grannys karoke machine... ky was super funny!

so all i gotta do 2maro, is try to get up to grannys to clean out my car, cancel the insurance, get the tag off my car, buy my 30g IPOD =D, go to work, cash my check... oh the fun...

TTYL...

Wednesday, April 8, 2009

Hanging around...

So yea, while i was "supervising" yesterday, Myleah kept saying "Oh Bob saget" and we looked up torrettes guy... he is funny as shit... one of my favorite lines (other than bob saget) is BITCH!!!! I love you... lol

and today wasnt really productive... wanted to hang with jeremy sommore... he got someone to cover his shift, which required this certain someone to stay just a mere 30 minutes after her scheduled shift, and she quit. just plum out quit... so jeremy had to go in anyways...

grrrr....

and i went to grandma's for a few, and saw my jay bird. that little turd is a handle ful. but at least she's starting to let us put her down, and she isnt crying as much when i leave. cuz i hate to leave her, she will start crying and it makes me sad :(

but she was having a ball and she loves guinnea... oh man does she love him. she will play with him and give him kisses and love on him.

Ugh,... ok, im like really tired... I'll be back later...

Ahhh... Home sweet home

im home finally. myleah, jeremy and I (sorta me) cleaned up his room. I mostly supervised =D It is amazingly clean... all i gotta do is get mine cleaned now... i probably should be doing that now instead of sitting here watching twilight, again. (30 something, i believe)

but i realized that i love taco bell! robin went and got us food the other day from there and i love it. I like the 3 layer nachos, a rice and nacho cheese only burrito, fiesta potatoes and caramel apple empanada. =D yay!!

LoL well, i think imma go clean.. ugh... =D

Monday, April 6, 2009

Chillin at my grannys

So yea, after my nap, I took my car for a test drive to see how things were working out. Thats bad that i gotta test my own car. I rode down to the gas station and back and it did good. Then after the sperm left, i did too. I went to see the old lady.

Now, i dont remember if i said anything, but she just had a pacemaker put in. So i went to see her and everyone was there: Cheryl, Brandi, Ky, Jay, and the sperm. Cheryl made a pot roast with tators and onions and rice. I put the juice and a few tators on the rice... yum! Both babies cracked me up. They have this cylinder shaped plastic blow up toy, like a ball but a cylinder. Well, they'll lay on their bellies and roll on top of it... Too cute!! Well, brandi took sperm back to his place and then ran to town, i guess. IDK what happened to her. so just me, jay and cheryl, oh yea and guinnea pig, stayed for a bit. Jay was sooo funny! she was running around babbling about anything. she would point at grandma and "Blah bwrrrr Aggg Hee hee hee" and sometimes she would point to one of the dogs and just babble away. Too funny.

then i came home, and got like really hungry for some icecream. i really wanted coldstones but i did not want to drive to the beach, so i settled for mcdonalds. well, mom and dad wanted food too so i went and got some. A big mac is 3 frickin dollars... for a sammich!! WTF?! well, it was too late before mom could tell me not to get the sammich, so on the way home, my car started acting up again... Dammit... well, now i have come to a decision to sell the piece of shit. Thats it, im done. imma call this guy in little river who owns a car dealership that offered to buy it. Imma miss my stickers but thats bout it.

and i hope we are still going bowling tomorrow... well, i gotta go. gotta get up at 3 am... grrr

oh yea...

about our waitress... rude bitch. every question we asked her she rushed to answer it and was just sooo rude. then she touched her TATAs in front of us and then brought us food. and she hardly checked on us... and then me and myleah had ordered slushes, and she put the wrong garnishes on the wrong slushes and i drank hers... OMG i was pissed... ugh

anyways... thats it

Sigh

it is sooo hott. I feel like imma burn up... lol

In other news, I had my interview today but I dont know if that is something i wanna do. I will have to go out and get people to buy ad's to send out in a mailing list packet. It's not too bad except for the fact that i will have to drive alot. So idk... I called RAR (Ragtops and Roadsters) back and now i gotta wait on Nurmene to call me back again. ugh this is bothering me.

I havent seen my tabby fla in a while and i miss her...

Tomorrow, Jerm, Myeah, Byron and I are going bowling after i get off work. yay!! i love bowling. Yesterday we went to maze mania, and we all remembered why we hated it!! you get lost and hot and sweaty. They didnt even have the maze set up so you could go through the exit... it was crap. Then we played putt putt and myleah and i got bored. it sucked. So we decided to go bowling next time... I love bowling =D

so yea... when i whoke up from my nap after my interview, the sperm of my father (aka biological brother) was here... eek!! so hes playing guitar hero as i type. its kinda funny.

Well, im out for now... might come back later

Just Stopping by for a quickie

Last couple of days have been confusing! wow!!

Yesterday, jeremy, myleah and byron and I went to maze mania and putt putt. We also went to fridays where our waitress was RUDE!!!

anyways, ill go into details later but just wanted to say something before my job interview today!!! see ya later!!

Friday, April 3, 2009

Friends: Better than Psychologists! (&&Cheaper too)

So, I have been thinking alot about my future and all... And been feeling very lonely. I don't know why i would... (sarcasim my dear friends...)

So yea, I was on facebook (Like always) when I read my old doc's status:

Vance Vandergriff

is on call.....blah, blah, blah.2 hours ago


Haha, so I commented and here is how the rest goes:

Aimee Zurcher at 10:20pm April 3
hey doc... I need ya!! =D

Dave Curry at 11:34pm April 3 via Facebook Mobile
Better get over there and help her doc! It could be life threatening.
Aimee Zurcher at 11:48pm April 3
its heartbreak... or rather heartache. it is serious...
Vance Vandergriff at 11:49pm April 3
Take two aspirins and facebook me in the morning ;)
Aimee Zurcher at 11:50pm April 3
ill try. lol can i take aleve though, asprin dont seem to help?
Vance Vandergriff at 11:55pm April 3
Sure thing dear. Now go get some sleep.
Dave Curry at 11:55pm April 3
I thought it was a cookie and call me.
Aimee Zurcher at 11:57pm April 3
wish i could sleep. i been thinking waaay too much, that i may have brain cancer. they say everything gives you cancer these days

*sidenote: sorry if the cancer joke offends anyone. most my family has had cancer, so i have a wee bit of dark humor



So that was another humorous thing for me tonight as i battle my slight depression. Thanks D and Tabby Fla for putting up with my whiney self. I love you both!! ILYMTT!!




Sigh

I am a mess. I want to go and move as I please without the worry of hurting anyone. I want to do things, and see places. I want to travel...

But I can't. I have people that i feel are holding me back...

but in other news, my family is trying one more trick with my car... and then Im done. And i have a job interview on monday with a marketing guy. Sounds like a good job. and im still waiting to hear from Ragtops... grrrr...

and i am feeling romantically hopeless... what to do... grrrr...

ok, im out. Peace Sucka's

Thursday, April 2, 2009

I'm done. I'm over it...

I'm done with my car. thats it. im done. time for a new one... NEXT!!!

It's crap and I just dont have the time, energy or money to waste on it anymore... Anyone want it?? take it... for a small price of 1840 you can have it... its the blue book value on it in the current condition and mileage... Im done with it...

and my dad says its runs fine with him but it doesnt with me. it must like him more cuz its awful. so i am done with it...

Wednesday, April 1, 2009

Oh yea

Ok, i knew i had forgotten some things...

1. I rode with brandi to McD's to get some sammiches, and we saw a turtle. tried to get someone to rescue it but no one would. He was still alive when we left, but he kept playing in the road, so IDK if he still is.

2. Jalyn peed on me. yes, the baby peed on me... grrr, So my loving heffa brought me some clothes so i could change. and i took a shower.. yum!

ok, thats all for now

My Grandma && Random Stuff


OK, so my granny fo fanny is in the hospital for one night for a pacemaker and im here with her. She is grumpy =D but i dont blame her. The night nurse is nice... Unlike when i stayed for brandi. that lady was sooo rude.

And for those who got the message about my car being fixed... well, just kidding... it did work fine for a test drive but now, no more... urgh

Imma sell it and buy a new one lol

Well, actually thats about it for now.. will post later

Sunday, March 29, 2009

Just being fat and lazy

ugh... i feel like really fat... i ate sooo much but it was some good home cooking that i aint had in a while. My obsession continues with twilight... my 10th consecutive time since owning it and imma watch it again as allison comes over today. thats allison with her new baby... Mary Grace. She is finally being able to go out now. YAY!! Shawn is gonna watch the baby today so allison can come hang out.

I miss my tabby fla. i was invited to go with her to the movies today with morgan but i had already made plans with allison so i couldnt go and i feel awful. I havent seen her in a long time and here i am able to go, and cant... grrrr... so sad... hopefully her and morgan will come over when the movie is over. and maybe watch twilight yet again... so obsessed... But I cant help it... I am so amazed at how good the movie is and better the books... the whole story is AWESOME!!! i really hope that midnight sun comes out soon...


I frickin love twilight...

I so cant wait til the rest of everything comes out... yay...

So jeremy wont come see me today no matter what i say... its his dads birthday but im not invited apparently and it makes me mad. 4 years with his family and im not invited... WTF?!

IDK... what to do what to do...

Ugh i havent heard anything back from RagTops yet... and its bothering me... grrr... Im gonna call 2maro before going to CFA... just to let her know my schedule.

I really want this job...


Well, im out for now... see ya

Saturday, March 28, 2009

interesting...

ok, we have a storm... big deal. that is the only thing about SC that i hate... summer storms and they are starting now apparently... ugh...

so brandi and cheryl had another fight... nothing new, so brandi once again came over and hung out. we watched twilight and part of forgetting sarah marshall... then about 11:30 ish (like 10 minutes ago) i took her home. and the storm looks like it may thunder more... but nothing too major... thank god. ugh...

idk about church 2maro... i may go... idk, no car so i would have to go with mom or either borrow her car. well, im tired as all get out... brandi prevented my sleep but its ok, it was nice hanging with her. so, 'nite all. will write soon!!

Slight Obsession...

I am now watching Twilight for the 7th consecutive time since i have owned it. I cant help it. Obsession may be a mild term. I have read the whole series 2 times and breaking dawn like 5 or 6 times.

Today at work sucked. Theresa, Debbie and Martin were all out. It was only Karen, Mom and I up front til 11:45. Then Josh, Attilla and Charlotte came in... Jason was running back and forth training Attilla's replacement, and fixing the screens. We had 2 go out... it was awful. Most of lunch i was window and bagging... ugh. I hated it... hoepfully things will work out good with Rag Tops and Roadsters and I can just quit CFA altogther. Im tired of it, really. I will miss Jason, but no one else. They just all get on my nerves lately. Karen is getting lazier and lazier... Charlottes ok, I would miss her too... but ugh... im just tired of it all...

Went to pay the phone/net bill today, and we went to walmart and i got jeremy, and his 2 nephews easter stuff today... yay. we also got stuff to make Roast beef with potato's, carrots, and rice n gravy 2maro. SO EXCITED!!!

Well, im out for now but will write later...

Friday, March 27, 2009

Just another day...

ok so I am off today. yay. I had an interview today and it was awesome. I will have an interview work day, kinda like a trial so I will know whether or not that I like it. I'm pretty sure I will.

So yea, jeremy is pretty much mad at me... and i thought I was going crazy... I told him that wed. i got off at 2 and had to go straight home, cuz my car is broke and i was driving moms. She had to go to work as soon as i got home with the car. So i thought I might have forgotten to tell him. well, last night I know i told him i was off 2day and had the interview then had to come home. Well he swears I didnt tell him and that I was crazy. well dad said he remembered hearing me tell him I was off... so idk... maybe he is going crazy =D

I talked to travis today for the first time since... YESTERDAY =D i love travie bear. we talked until his stepdad came back. that asshole... the stepdad that is. I cannot stand him and i have never met him but they dont want me to meet him cuz he wont like what i gotta say.

As for work, i cant wait til atilla is gone... her and the other bitch theresa embarrassed the hell outta my friend billy and now he wont even talk to me and idk what the said. so thanks alot bitches. I wouldnt have even known unless steve wouldnt have said anything... tsk tsk tsk they need to leave my friends alone. i think atilla is jealous cuz her man wont marry her anymore... and theresa is jealous cuz im young and skinnier than her... so idk

And i have been watching twilight nonstop since ive gotten it.. its not as detailed as the book but still amazing. Jeremy said he picked me up something at BAM last night that is twilight affilated but wont tell me what.

Thursday, March 26, 2009

Wow.

Damn. It has been too long. 2 months. Sorry for the scare, but I did not fall off the face of the earth. Just been busy.

Jeremy is going to need eye surgery. *sigh* oh the joy... (dark, dramatic, sarcastic tone) He has caterax in both eyes... Makes me sad. He found out when he went to NC for his grandfather's funeral. I joined him for the service and all. It was beautiful. I wish i could have met him.

I have acquired a puppy. A mutt named Guinnea Pig. =D He was named some Japanese thing that I couldn't pronounce. but we called him guinnea for short. so TA DA!!! Just add the pig, and there you go.

Alot of my friends see lab in him, and I do too. Imma ask the vet next time I go. He loves the vet, shockingly. He loves to play out doors, and loves other dogs and even cats. He loves to play with Bella, Jeremys kitten but the feeling isnt mutual. It's kinda funny to watch him chase her around.

I have also read and fell in love with the whole Twilight thing. Craze. Frenzy. Trend, whatever have you. I just love everything about the books, the story and the movie. Though the movie tends to piss jeremy off. It kinda made me mad at first but then after watching the entire thing i realized it shouldnt. They had to cut some stuff somewhere or it wouldve been waaaay longer than 2 hours. I averaged about 6 hours for each book. Took me a week total. I just love them. I probably owe jeremy for a new copy of Breaking Dawn though. I may have broken the spine of the book. Twilight and Breaking Dawn are my favorites... I wont say why just incase you haven't read them but want too... Oh funny thing. My friend Thom looks just like Carlisle except Thom's hair is brown and a little longer. Too Funny actually! =D




Funny things happened today at CFA. First, when Rob comes in, Steve starts to bag. Well, I open the mini fridge and it hits steve and he says "ARRGGH!! damn it" well, i barely heard the damn it. Some lady pulls up and IDK if she heard the damn it or just him bitching about how imma bag for my self after that. She yells at him to apologize cuz he's a jerk and she hates his attitude and its against everything that CFA is for and blaaahhh blahhh blah.

Then some US Coast Guard comes in and gives me a credit card with the name "Stacy" on it. I thought it was his girlfriends card and say "You dont look like a stacy". His real name is stacy... "CRAP!!" was all i could think.

Well, Im tired and need to go to bed... gotta interview in the morning... Night Yall!!

Tuesday, January 27, 2009

Raynaud's Disease

  • Definition
    Raynaud's disease is a condition that causes some areas of your body — such as your fingers, toes, tip of your nose and your ears — to feel numb and cool in response to cold temperatures or stress. In Raynaud's disease, arteries that supply blood to your skin narrow, limiting blood circulation to affected areas.
    Women are more likely to have Raynaud's disease. It's also more common in people who live in colder climates.
    Treatment of Raynaud's disease depends on its severity and the presence of associated conditions. For most people, Raynaud's disease is more a nuisance than a disability.

  • Causes
    Doctors don't completely understand the cause of Raynaud's attacks, but blood vessels in the hands and feet appear to overreact to cold temperatures or stress:
    Cold temperatures. When your body is exposed to cold temperatures, your extremities lose heat. Your body slows down blood supply to your fingers and toes to preserve your body's core temperature. Your body specifically reduces blood flow by narrowing the small arteries under the skin of your extremities. In people with Raynaud's, this normal response is exaggerated.
    Stress. Stress causes a similar reaction to cold in the body, and likewise the body's response may be exaggerated in people with Raynaud's.
    Blood vessels in spasmWith Raynaud's, arteries to your fingers and toes go into what's called vasospasm. This constricts the vessels dramatically and temporarily limits blood supply. Over time, these same small arteries may also thicken slightly, further limiting blood flow. The result is that affected skin turns a pale and dusky color due to the lack of blood flow to the area. Once the spasms subside and blood returns to the area, the tissue may turn red before returning to a normal color.
    Cold temperatures are most likely to provoke an attack. Exposure to cold can be as simple as putting your hands under a faucet of running cold water, taking something out of the freezer or exposure to cold air. For some people, exposure to cold temperatures isn't necessary. Emotional stress alone can cause an episode of Raynaud's.
    Some researchers are studying whether Raynaud's may be partly an inherited disorder.
    Primary vs. secondary Raynaud's Raynaud's occurs in two main types:
    Primary Raynaud's. This is Raynaud's without an underlying disease or associated medical problem that could provoke vasospasm. Also called Raynaud's disease, it's the most common form of the disorder.
    Secondary Raynaud's. Also called Raynaud's phenomenon, this form is caused by an underlying problem. Although secondary Raynaud's is less common than the primary form, it tends to be a more serious disorder. Signs and symptoms of secondary Raynaud's usually first appear at later ages — around 40 — than they do for people with the primary form of Raynaud's.
    Causes of secondary Raynaud's include:
    Scleroderma. Raynaud's phenomenon occurs in the majority of people who have scleroderma — a rare disease that leads to hardening and scarring of the skin. Scleroderma, a type of connective tissue disease, results in Raynaud's because the disease reduces blood flow to the extremities.
    Lupus. Raynaud's is also a common problem for people with lupus — an autoimmune disease that can affect many parts of your body, including your skin, joints, organs and blood vessels. An autoimmune disease is one in which your immune system attacks healthy tissue.
    Rheumatoid arthritis. Raynaud's may be an initial sign of rheumatoid arthritis — an inflammatory condition causing pain and stiffness in the joints, often including the hands and feet.
    Sjogren's syndrome. Raynaud's phenomenon can also occur in people who have Sjogren's syndrome — an autoimmune disorder that may accompany scleroderma, lupus or rheumatoid arthritis.
    Diseases of the arteries. Raynaud's phenomenon can be associated with various diseases that affect arteries, such as atherosclerosis, which is the gradual buildup of plaques in blood vessels that feed the heart (coronary arteries), or Buerger's disease, a disorder in which the blood vessels of the hands and feet become inflamed. Primary pulmonary hypertension, a type of high blood pressure that affects the arteries of the lungs, is frequently associated with Raynaud's.
    Carpal tunnel syndrome. The carpal tunnel is a narrow passageway in your wrist that protects a major nerve to your hand. Carpal tunnel syndrome is a condition in which pressure is put on this nerve, producing numbness and pain in the affected hand. The affected hand may become more susceptible to cold temperatures and episodes of Raynaud's.
    Repetitive trauma. Raynaud's can also be caused by repetitive trauma that damages nerves serving blood vessels in the hands and feet. Some people who type or play the piano vigorously or for long periods of time may be susceptible to Raynaud's. Workers who operate vibrating tools can develop a type of Raynaud's phenomenon called vibration-induced white finger.
    Smoking. Smoking constricts blood vessels and is a potential cause of Raynaud's.
    Injuries. Prior injuries to the hands or feet, such as wrist fracture, surgery or frostbite, can lead to Raynaud's phenomenon.
    Certain medications. Some drugs — including beta blockers, which are used to treat high blood pressure; migraine medications that contain ergotamine; medications containing estrogen; certain chemotherapy agents; and drugs that cause blood vessels to narrow, such as some over-the-counter cold medications — have been linked to Raynaud's.
    Chemical exposure. People exposed to vinyl chloride, such as those who work in the plastics industry, may develop an illness similar to scleroderma. Raynaud's can be a part of that illness.
    Other causes. Raynaud's has also been linked to thyroid gland disorders.

It's been a while.

Ok, so much has happpened since i have last been on here...

My birthday was shit. I had a HUGE party planned at one of my favorite restaraunts: Cracker Barrell. I invited over 50 people, and only 2 showed... Jeremy (naturally, he was my ride) and Emily. A few people had excuses, but i am mainly pissed at all the people who were like "yea im coming" but never showed or called to let me know. Then Emily, Jeremy and I went to Chick Fil A to see Trish, Rob and Brian. Brian mis-made a shake and gave it to Emily and I. (We had already shared a hot fudge almond sunday at CB) and we didnt finish it but it was a nice gesture. Well, when trish got off at 8, we rode with them back to the casey residence for trish to change and then we meet up with kellan at the theater and we all watched Madagascar 2. (My 2nd time seeing it and a sense of de ja vu since last year i watched a movie on my birthday that I had seen before too...) but the coolest part was that we had the theater to ourselves so we laughed louder and had more fun. =D

Well, then somehow or another I finally met James Ackerman. (the nerd) ok, this one is a bit interesting. My father's sperm (aka my biological half brother) was best friends with James's brother Ben for as long as I can remember. I have seen him a few times throughout the years, often confusing him and ben. well, the night i FINALLY meet him was possibly terrifying... actually, it was pretty damn terrifying in the end. At first it was ok. Emily and I got off work about the same time, and we had planned on meeting him at the dojo. Well, I watched them practice, and even witnessed James teaching (kinda funny =D) well afterward we went to the waffle house in PI (where the dojo is located). The we included in this was Emily, James, Steph (very cool) Steph's snake =D, and trish soon joined us... oh yea, Spencer too.. So we chilled out and ate and I watched Steph, Spence and James play some card game when my sister sent me a text message saying "Jalyn is in the hospital". I called her freaking out... apparently Jalyn had a siezure and cheryl, of course, was freaking out... now by this point, i was paying for my food, freaking out begging james to take me to the hospital. James already agreed to take me home. Well, in his attempts to calm me down, he ate soooooooooooooooo slooooooooooooooowly... til i threatened to choke him with his food, which by the time i resorted to that, he was finished. so we told everyone bye, and headed to Gtown Hospital. (i later felt bad, because i felt like a jerk, being our first formal meeting not just with James, but with Steph, also. Emily said they understood, it was a dleicate situation.) Well, I stayed in the hospital til damn near midnight with no result as to what was wrong with my baby girl, my heartbeat. Well, coincidently, earlier that day, a little boy named Michael came into work and gave everyone a little figurine he made out of sand and glitter, his family had a business at one point, and i happened to get praying hands. they sat with us in the ER and now are in Jalyn's room. After almost a week and a variety of tests, Jalyn was released with no diagnosis. Thank God!!

The day before Christmas Eve and Christmas Eve Night i stayed at grandmas. Actually, Cheryl, brandi, Ky and Jay all stayed too... and it was exciting watching the girls open presents... oh they loved it...

Well, New years eve, i got the opportunity to stay with Jeremy's family. and I took it. at first it was dramatic...

Jeremy had taken a shower and didnt tell me... so Byron invited me back to sit with him and Myleah... and i was looking at all their photos.. like from their wedding. well, she was talking about how shitty people were. esp her made of honor. The girl didnt talk to Myleah after the wedding and was too busy the day they left for SC. but texted her saying she was excited about seeing her spring break, and myleah told her no. She said there were only 2 people she trusted fully, Byron and her mom. She listed the people she didnt trust fully, naming jeremy, his dad and i first, and apparently jeremy walked in on that statement and left. She also listed very close family members... well, she meant with her whole life... and it was taken the wrong way and took 3 times for everything to get worked out... and Im glad it did... we all learned alot about each other that night and Im thankful for that much... maybe all the drama can be left behind...

But after that, we all went to walmart to get food for dinner, and a game... the one we picked was fun at first, but got boring very quickly. The food was ok... meaning that she fixed wings (don't eat meat) and some kind of salsa with velvetta cheese and tomatos with chiles. Now that was good. we listened to jimmy buffet and bob marley. when it got close to midnight, we turned the tv on to watch the ball drop, and byron and myleah got out the champange glasse and filled them with sparkling cidar =D i wore a little pink hat with a matching blower... when midnight came, we drank, kissed and popped little poppers... the ones with paper confetti inside. very cool. the first new years with NOBODY drunk =D

Well, also on new years eve... ham had been sneaking out the whole of christmas break except christmas eve and day... getting drunk and snorting pills... well, finally we got her to agree to rehab... that she was only there for 2 weeks. she refused to do anything, and they sent her home. well... Now, she has moved out and in with skylar... the bitch that caused all this shit.

They day she moved, brandi tried to visit, and they wouldnt let her passed the door. Then Cheryl tried, and they threatened to call the law, and she beat them to the punch. she explained about rehab and all, and just wanting to talk... Ham refuses to see anyone. Well, the cop brought her home to get her medicine so dad wouldnt cause trouble i guess, i dont know really why... well, i emailed her trying to bribe her outta there.. shes 17 so we cant touch her... well, i tried to get her to move outta there... anywhere but there and the phone she would get... she refuses and she has even chopped her hair off...

then she wants mom and dad to sign a paper saying she can transfer schools. they refuse as long as she lives there. they dont mind her not being home, but there is a big no no. But i doubt they will if she moves to anywhere they want her too because the moment they agree, i know she will be right back there with them evil people. And i know they are setting her up and i guarentee they will pay IF any harm is done to her...

And somewhere in this mess, I got a car. A 96 nissan sentra SXE... yay me... and then i got my first flat with it just this past sunday on my way to the grocery store to get dinner... just to find out my jack doesnt have a handle and i dont have a wrench thing for my wheels. lol fun times, fun time...

And my wedding date has been moved up thank God, and I want it to stay... will give me enough time to plan it all out... April 17, 2010... Jason doesnt like it because it was his wedding date... well obvisouly not the 2010 part... but he is my wedding coordinator... With Tabby still being my Made of Honor... though my bridesmaids have changed somewhat... I had 2 lined up that have been fired... but they will come with due time...

And tonight, jeremy will be here and I will be entertained... taken away and distracted from all this pain...

OH! Speaking of pain, My best friend, my sister has Raynaud's disease... not sure what it is but i am going to research it as soon as i am done here...

but the second mentioning of pain... i have finished twilight and new moon and i have started on eclipse... i literally cannot put them down. i had to take a break from reading in the slight dark to type this up because im too lazy to turn a light on...

But i am going to research and will post more later....

PartyLite

Twilight (obsessed) =D